And so it begins...

I guess you could say that I've begun the journey of a lifetime.  I've known for a long time that I've needed help, and today I found the courage to ask for it.  I am excited and nervous, and most importantly hopeful and confident in the decision that I've made,  a decision that I will have with me forever. 

Mentally and physically, I'm going to work harder on myself than I've ever worked before.  I know there will be times of huge accomplishment and times of frustration.  I have all the resources on my side, everything I need at my fingertips to make me successful. 

I've mentioned to some close to me that this decision has been in my head and on my heart, and one question presented to me by someone I trust with everything was "what makes this time different?"  My response was simple.  "I can't tell you how it's different this time, it just is."  I have never been so sure of anything before - I'm sure I'm saving my life.  (See the illustration.  It makes me uncomfortable to look at it, but it should.)

(Ps - part of having this procedure is being a non-smoker.  I am proud, rather OVERJOYED, to say that I have been cigarette free since November 22nd.  KW - this is different too, I can't explain it, but I'm not going to question it.)  I wrote a letter to the cigarettes randomly after I quit.  Maybe I'll post it this weekend, 'cause it was a good one. 

So without further adieu, here's my big news.  Today at 10 am this morning, I battled the ice layer over the city to began the pre-surgical education process for a gastric banding procedure.  Here's a picture of what my tummy will look like after all is said and done (after the first of the year). 

There's my news...I'm ready to work.  The tools are in place, I just have to learn how to use them.  I did a lot of research on which surgical facility I wanted to use, and I'll save why I chose the one I did for a later time.  Just know I'm in good hands!!